I just don't
like doles. I wouldn't accept one dime from anybody. I'm not gonna raise
my children on Aid. Why should I? There's enough money in America for me
to raise my children. Now one is seventeen, one is twenty-one. And I
absolutely refuse to accept these handouts from anyone. How am I gonna
teach these children of mine what a pleasure it is in accomplishment? Do
you realize what it means if I'm gonna sit here and accept this check?
ADC: Aid to Dependent Children , a US
government program to provide money to women with children whose husbands
had died or abandoned their family hiring'em: hiring them
category: classification
make it:
make enough money to obtain their basic needs; survive
plum: something
highly prized
Everybody's screaming now, "Oh, these
women on ADC." Why hasn't somebody told these people that they're on
ADC because you gave all this money to keep from hiring 'em? Years and
years ago. This didn't just start, you know. You don't keep people in a
certain category for hundreds of years and expect them to come out and do
all these things. For generations and generations they've been just barely
making it. Now what do you expect? Plums?
Negro: a
black person, now usually offensive term. Use instead African American,
man of color, woman of color, or people of color
defy: do
something that is against someone else's rules
got so: the
situation became so that…
old time: a
fun time
I happened to be the kind of Negro that
became controversial, because I read such things as The American Dilemma
and I walk around with the book in my hand, see? I defied them in so many
ways, I almost terrified them. You know, it got so every time I got on an
elevator-"What are you reading, Lucy? What are you reading? What are
you reading?" I'd begin to enjoy this thing, you know? I wasshavings
the best old time.
damn: almost
have a ball: have
fun; enjoy oneself particularly well
heading: the
top of a page
intern: a
student who practicing as part of his or her study to be a doctor
get on: start
saying…
Here's this Negro woman, every time you see
her she's reading a different book. You know what I'd do? I'd go to the
library and read those books, and I'd just dash back home and read these.
And truly it became a game with me. I don't think I ever had more fun in
my life than I had working there.
I guess I was damn near fifty then. That's
the reason I say I was havin' a ball. I'm carrying the book by Faulkner,
paperback, in my pocket, you know. This particular time I didn't realize
that the heading of the book was sticking out just a little above. The
students, doctors, interns got on-"Faulkner!"
stereo thing: stereotypes
glare at: stare
angrily
You're just breaking down this stereo thing
that all Negroes are ignorant, they won't read, they won't do this. They
won't help themselves. Once they see you're trying to do it ... You see
what? They're not really worrying so much about the Negro; they're worried
about themselves. When I really want to fight'em, you know what I do? I
glare at 'em. They cringe.
get letters: get
notices from the school
little item: school
notices
work up (to
his capacity): work as much as he has the
ability to workvague: unclear
Crane High: the
name of a high school
ghetto: the
poor section of a town
be laid off
(from): be let go from your job because the
company does not have enough money to keep you or is changing its
structure
cock my hat
Miss Johnny Aside: place your hat on the side
rather than the top of your head
Julian was doing very poorly in school and
I was getting letters. You know, they send all these little items. Come to
see me, come to school, because your child is not working up to his
capacity. I don't know why they just don't tell you the truth about it,
instead of using all these vague, false phrases. I thought he was just
being lazy, but the child couldn't read. He couldn't spell. We were at
Crane High, out there in the ghetto. I was laid off from work the next
day. I got up, cocked my hat Miss Johnny Aside -I wanted them to know I
was plenty mad then. Oh yeah, I visited Crane.
in a row: one
after the next
auditorium: a
large room in the school used for sports and for gathering all the
school's students together at once (such as for a special school-wide
announcement)
put up this
business: handle
blah, blah,
blah: and so on
Julian wasshavingsthree study periods in a
row. Gee, this is kind of crazy-studying what? I went to see this study
hall. And this is the auditorium. It has a false ceiling, and there's very
few lights, and there's children everywhere, male and female, and about
the only thing they can do is make love. Most of the kids can't read
anyway, but if they could, they wouldn't be able to see. So I went to the
counselor and he said, "It costs ,000 to put up this business of
putting lights in, and the school system doesn't have money," and
blah, blah, blah. I said, "But in the meantime, what are you going to
do about all these children in there, these boys and girls, these young
men and women?"I said, "Maybe they can't read but they can do
other things in there, such as getting babies."
bet: can
guess
disgrace: absolutely
without honor
storefront:
the front section of a store that includes a large window
do any good: is
not worth anything
lifeblood: what
makes life worth living
crap: other
unimportant things
You're talking about teachers. I bet he
never had the same teacher twice in two weeks in two years. It's a
disgrace to call these places schools. Schools you learn in. They could
take a storefront anywhere and clean it up, put some seats in there, and
put some books in. But see, you can't learn anythingswheresthere is no
book.. Julian went a whole year in Crane, didn't have a book. If I woke up
in a house that didn't have a book, I'd just burn it down. It wouldn't do
any good. To me, they're my lifeblood. Types of caps, gowns, all that
crap, it doesn't mean nothing.
rear:
raise (a child)
thrill:
something fun
Oh, what am I really looking for? My
daughter to have her baby. I would like for her to finish her college
education. She's gonna need it, to help her child, to rear her child. The
only thrill left for me is to see my grandchild come and to see what I can
do about him. Won't that be fun?
paint: make
pictures with colored liquid
count: what
is important is…
hostile: angry
and unfriendly
one has had
it: you are finished; you have been given a
last chance and has failed
You know, I'll be able to afford things
that would give him incentive to paint, music, literature, all these
things that would free his little soul. Let's face it. What counts is
knowledge. And feeling. You see, there's such a thing as a feeling tone.
One is friendly, one is hostile. And if you don't have this, baby, you've
had it. You're dead.
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